I

have no more excuses, i tell the truth, do everything i can, but it seems even that is not good enough.

i dont know what is anymore, the last month has been stress stress and more stress, building pressure. 

everything i say falls upon deaf ears, evrything ive done has gone unnoticed. 

i know im not the victim, never tried to make myself out to be, never ment for any of this, never ment for the pain. everything was perfect untill i fucked it up, never looked for anything else or anyone else, and never did anything of the sort, never even crossed my mind, never a consideration. 

i just dont know what to do, i need help.